Miles to go Before I Sleep

A lot has been happening lately. I, uh…hmm…I’ve changed a lot. 

Better or worse I don’t know yet.

I know what it’s like to have blood on your hands now but…er…it’s not so bad. I mean, it’s part of the job description now. 

fracta-ridet:

PEI Red Fox (by Insight Imaging: John A Ryan Photography)

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haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

Heh, yeah. It feels good being able to walk around outside without worrying too much. I missed talking to you too. Thanks a lot for the Valentine card by the way. It was very sweet.

I’m glad you did and that it reached you alright! I didn’t use an owl which was very very confusing.

What are you doing now?

You normally use owls to deliver mail? Huh…

Er, well, I’m not doing much now.  

Well, yes, all of us do. Very smart bird…usually.

Since you can leave…would you like to come see my house?

I am perfectly okay with that. I’d love to. I’ve been meaning to visit other places since I’ve been to the surface and all.

Well, this is my address ((address is here)). It’s a bit out of the way. Really out of the way. I live near the woods. So, if you get lost, yell for me. I’ll most likely hear you.

No problem. I’m pretty good at finding people so far, so I should be able to find your place fairly easy. It being near the woods is even better. [kept the address in his mind.] I’ll be over when I get the okay from the others.  

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

Heh, yeah. It feels good being able to walk around outside without worrying too much. I missed talking to you too. Thanks a lot for the Valentine card by the way. It was very sweet.

I’m glad you did and that it reached you alright! I didn’t use an owl which was very very confusing.

What are you doing now?

You normally use owls to deliver mail? Huh…

Er, well, I’m not doing much now.  

Well, yes, all of us do. Very smart bird…usually.

Since you can leave…would you like to come see my house?

I am perfectly okay with that. I’d love to. I’ve been meaning to visit other places since I’ve been to the surface and all.

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

I’ve been gone a while, yeah?

Sorry…went on a few missions with the ties and stuff.

I’m, er, learning the ropes?

I look good in a suit at least.

Are you alright?

Uh, yeah, kinda. It was a bit shocking but I’ll get used to the rough work. I mostly just watched…and stuff.

What is it that ‘ties’ do?

Uhm, well…lots of things. Not a lot of it is legal and I can’t really talk about it.

Typical, er, mafia stuff but with other things attached. It’s dangerous but also exciting. Takes a while to get used to. I’ll probably be given little things, maybe sniffing out people given my nose and all. 

Hmmm. Mafia. I don’t think I am all that familiar with the term. But I’ll look it up.

I’m glad you have been able to get out of the mansion, I have missed talking with you.

Heh, yeah. It feels good being able to walk around outside without worrying too much. I missed talking to you too. Thanks a lot for the Valentine card by the way. It was very sweet.

I’m glad you did and that it reached you alright! I didn’t use an owl which was very very confusing.

What are you doing now?

You normally use owls to deliver mail? Huh…

Er, well, I’m not doing much now.  

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

I’ve been gone a while, yeah?

Sorry…went on a few missions with the ties and stuff.

I’m, er, learning the ropes?

I look good in a suit at least.

Are you alright?

Uh, yeah, kinda. It was a bit shocking but I’ll get used to the rough work. I mostly just watched…and stuff.

What is it that ‘ties’ do?

Uhm, well…lots of things. Not a lot of it is legal and I can’t really talk about it.

Typical, er, mafia stuff but with other things attached. It’s dangerous but also exciting. Takes a while to get used to. I’ll probably be given little things, maybe sniffing out people given my nose and all. 

Hmmm. Mafia. I don’t think I am all that familiar with the term. But I’ll look it up.

I’m glad you have been able to get out of the mansion, I have missed talking with you.

Heh, yeah. It feels good being able to walk around outside without worrying too much. I missed talking to you too. Thanks a lot for the Valentine card by the way. It was very sweet.

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

I’ve been gone a while, yeah?

Sorry…went on a few missions with the ties and stuff.

I’m, er, learning the ropes?

I look good in a suit at least.

Are you alright?

Uh, yeah, kinda. It was a bit shocking but I’ll get used to the rough work. I mostly just watched…and stuff.

What is it that ‘ties’ do?

Uhm, well…lots of things. Not a lot of it is legal and I can’t really talk about it.

Typical, er, mafia stuff but with other things attached. It’s dangerous but also exciting. Takes a while to get used to. I’ll probably be given little things, maybe sniffing out people given my nose and all. 

haveyouseenmynargle:

milesleftuntraveled:

I’ve been gone a while, yeah?

Sorry…went on a few missions with the ties and stuff.

I’m, er, learning the ropes?

I look good in a suit at least.

Are you alright?

Uh, yeah, kinda. It was a bit shocking but I’ll get used to the rough work. I mostly just watched…and stuff.

I’ve been gone a while, yeah?

Sorry…went on a few missions with the ties and stuff.

I’m, er, learning the ropes?

I look good in a suit at least.

jmrb241:

kovaniy:

edoro:

Since I know this is relevant to a number of people following me right now, I’m going to repeat something I’ve said several times in the past.

If you are suffering from some kind of mental disorder, something that impairs your function, like anxiety or depression or dysophoria or anything like that, you’re not a bad person. 

You’re not a weak person. You’re not worthless, although I know you think you are. You are, in fact, so strong.

Think about it this way: You are suffering from something that makes your brain work against you. It makes you terrified of very simple things. It makes you terrified of basic interactions that society is built on. It makes you hate your body. It makes you hate your self. It makes you feel worthless and useless and unlovable. It makes you want to stop existing.

And every single day that you keep existing, you’re doing it in spite of yourself. You are actively working against your own mind in order to have even a semblance of a life.

That’s fucking hardcore. How many of you who are following me don’t suffer from depression or anxiety? Can you guys imagine doing that? Can you imagine having to literally fight with yourself every single day just to get out of bed and go out into the world?

What happens, what the disease in your brain makes you do, is that you compare yourself to people who aren’t suffering this way. You compare yourself at your very lowest to other people who are functioning normally or at their best. Because your brain is working against you and telling you you’re worthless, you compare yourself like you and those people who don’t have those problems are on the same level.

You’re not, though. They’re on a completely different level than you, and you have to fight and claw and grit your teeth and fucking drag yourself up to the basic level of function that they achieve without even thinking about it. You have to expend so much effort to do the things they do subconsciously.

So if your grades slip? If you have trouble socializing? If you have trouble getting up? If you sleep badly? If you eat too much? If you hurt yourself? If you cry over stupid bullshit? If you cry over nothing? If you feel empty and hollow and numb? If you get angry and sad too often? If you don’t ever want to do anything? If you DON’T do anything?

You’re not weak. You’re overwhelmed and struggling. You are, truly, your own worst enemy.

And it’s not your fault. And if anyone, including your own brain, tries to tell you it is, you tell them to shut the fuck up. A mental disorder is not a personal failing and it doesn’t make you worthless, broken, or useless. It makes you a person who has a problem and needs help, who deserves that help, because they deserve to be happy.

Just nearly cried reading this, hahaha…

I needed this right now.

(( wow…I…really needed this. Could be taken IC as well since Brook suffers from a lot of this and sometimes Jim. Sharing this for others who also may need this. <3))

((reblogging this because of reasons))

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